life suck..i have no freakng idea wat i want in life...ive been given to chance to turn my life around and i blew it plus embarrased myself.wish i could normal again.no one understand hw its like to be in my position..now i hafta bear all the consequences of e biggest mistake ive made in life...i wish i cud kill myself...bt i dun even have de guts to do so...if i dun pay up, ill get locked up...and tats exactly wats gonna happen...arghhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!shit!!...if only i cud turn back the hands of time...im suppose to passout as a police but im gona end up being arrested by a police....FUCKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!im always blaming others for every issues tat i had to deal with but this time i finally understood tat i am to blame for evryting that...if i cud aplogise to evryone that ive hurt or disappoint i wud..guess its not gonna happen eh?...ive got 2 bottles of bleach with me,n if i dun see no hope for me,then i guess ima ne hfta to drink it....ITS ALLL MY FAULT!!!!!!!!!!





So i was getting a lil antsy waiting for my squier stracoustic to arrive.....Sooo went to a guitar shop at parklane n got my myself a new lefthanded acoustic guitar!!!!!!hahhaa..no big deal ,coz it cost less than a 1000..here it is...







So todae was the worst day ever..hangout wit sum frens and tiz makcik gave me one never-ending lecture on how important education is...bla bla bla....den she went on and on abt smoking...arghhh!!!..aniwae,80% of it fall on deaf ears..
haha...coz while she was blabbering,i imagined her singing some sentimental hindi song...and, it seriously seems like it when u observe properly on her
lips movements and her nasal voice...Then went back home,and my mom caught me sheeeshaaaa-ing....wtf!!!and worse of all she threaten to call de cnb
coz she tot i was smoking some pot..and once again...got a never-ever-gonna-end-till-next-year lecture from her...and this time round,i imagined her singing some
sum acdc song...at first it was more like back in black,den it went to decode and ended with hotel california...Aniwae this ppl are just wasting their time
and energy tryna put some sense into this head of mine coz im stubborn and nuthin can change that...im too stubborn to not be stubborn...So ears tired,eyes tired,
mind all over e place..i tink i need 7 days of sleep..aite ltrz





maynn i jus wanna squeeze him like a chicken....and i bet hes not human...









is this the cooolest shit ever or what????!!!!!!!!!!!.....haks...bod it frm a fren..
at 1st,he was like "there is no way that i m goona sell it away",but after much persuasion,he had to giv in...haha...NOBODY SAYS NO TO AISHAH!!!!!!!!!.....n btw its not a toy guitAR...its a 100 percent real battery operated electric guitar.....aite ltrzz















Maynn cant believe its another new year,and im gonna be an official adult soon...So u noe wat it means!!!i can legally drink(not dat im an alcoholic),watch m21 movies,get the gst money cpf crap,ermmm... vote?,n best of all....i am not under the watch of my parents anymore(doesnt make any diff really)..

So to summarized 2008...i...
1)got a job in aetos as an screening officer at airport where i got to noe alot of international frens(especially thais)..
2)ended a 6 year relationship
3)had my last trip to bkk
4)parents got separated
5)resigned n got myself into nyp, without even thinking
6)withdraw from nyp
7)rotten at home for 3 mths n still counting...
8)gotten myself an acoustic n electric guitar and a keyboard

So technically speaking,my lifes a mess,i dont know what i want in life anymore...i am n had always been a quitter..i dun care abt the future n stuff..But one thing s for sure...im sure of the things that enjoy n spend the rest of my life doing in life...imane be 21 and nobody can tell me what i can or not do..alrite ppl...wish u all the luck for 2009...





i wanna live alone in a jungle and just die......