life suck..i have no freakng idea wat i want in life...ive been given to chance to turn my life around and i blew it plus embarrased myself.wish i could normal again.no one understand hw its like to be in my position..now i hafta bear all the consequences of e biggest mistake ive made in life...i wish i cud kill myself...bt i dun even have de guts to do so...if i dun pay up, ill get locked up...and tats exactly wats gonna happen...arghhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!shit!!...if only i cud turn back the hands of time...im suppose to passout as a police but im gona end up being arrested by a police....FUCKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!im always blaming others for every issues tat i had to deal with but this time i finally understood tat i am to blame for evryting that...if i cud aplogise to evryone that ive hurt or disappoint i wud..guess its not gonna happen eh?...ive got 2 bottles of bleach with me,n if i dun see no hope for me,then i guess ima ne hfta to drink it....ITS ALLL MY FAULT!!!!!!!!!!